Tuesday, March 20, 2007

to understand to acheive being understood

i'm not doing so hot at this...it's just like in any other aspect of a relationship...if you strive to understand, comfort, please, etc the other person and they're doing the same for you it achieves this great higher level of...well, i can't think of the word right now, but ya kwim right?
well, i'm not doing so great at it...i want to be understood by rich, yet i'm not doing my part in trying to understand him first...and he the same so we're butting heads when it comes to that...it kind of makes me laugh sometimes how similar and how different we are at the same time...
oh, update on the play, i did get the part of brenda (model w/ face time but not many lines) BUT there are 4 male rolls not filled and i'll admit i really feel like my time is being wasted w/o the whole cast being there and it's getting frustrating...like last week, they had some fundraiser or something on saturday, so other than doing a "fashion show" of what nicer clothes i had all i did was sit around and wait for something to happen w/ OUR play and it never did...granted i think that the director thought something was going to happen because she was very perplexed when one of our only 3 males didn't show up so they just did the practice for saturday, but if i'd known that was all they were going to do i would've gone home after trying on my last combo...seriously...i'm sure if i got in on a full cast situation i'd feel differently but i'm really feeling like this is just so unprofessional right now...
i'm totally having mixed emotions about it as i want to do it, but at the same time i want to drop it because i feel like my time is totally being wasted...

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