if i were a gem stone

what would i be?

what color

what cut

what sheen

a saphire, deep and blue

a ruby, full of passion

an emerald, with a joyful glint

nay a diamond, strong but flawed

brilliant and clear

strenght to help me help you

flawed so i can't do it all

brilliant to feel of worth

clear to help me stay true

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

put my diamond on your necklace of life

let me help you through your ups

your downs your strife

put my diamond on your necklace of life

remember my flaws

they make me unique

put my diamond on your necklace of life

let my brilliance shine for you

please remember my worth

put my diamond on your necklace of life

it's clear, i'm true

i will be there for you

doin' the meposian dance of joy

i made my 1st school/library book sale today!!! before the discount to them it was $536 and i get approx $72 commission out of it...but even better is now i have a client and i know she'll buy from me in the future because we have a better discount than her other suppliers that offer some of our titles!!! oh how totally stoked am i!!!

even better, since i wasn't expecting this now i feel like i don't have to wait for the garage sale and i can get the bike trailer!!!! SWEET!!!

IN STEP double jogger bike trailer

i'm beyond excited!!! so long as the garage sale goes well this weekend i will be getting this for the kids!!! and if it doesn't i may go ahead and get it anyways because i earned quite a bit more money tutoring this past month than i thought i was going to!!! doing the meposian dance of joy here!!!!

bye bye washer & dryer

bert came and picked up the washer and dryer tonight...he's recently married so it was kind of fun that they were going to a newly wed couple...i hope that they serve them as well as they have served our little family...and now i just have to hope that when it comes time for us to buy a washer & dryer we can find as good a deal as we gave them LOL

oh and on a "lighter" note i now have to be an imposition to my friends and use their laundry facilities until we leave...good thing i have all but todays' dirty things washed already LOL

bitter sweet

monday baby went to her new home w/ elliott...i was sad to see her go, but happy at the same time that she was going to someone that will love and care for her as much as i do...she is a beautiful car and i have very many happy memories involving her...i hope she brings elliott as many if not more!!!

my terrible, no good, very bad day....

let's just say i want all to be said and done and i want to be out of here...aj was ROTTEN today, riley was a little onerier than usual but not too bad...first off, i waited like an hour outside the property management office to turn in the letters for the sublet and talk about where to turn in the keys and if they would supply the paint or if i needed to buy it to paint over where aj had colored on the wall...she NEVER SHOWED...so i shoved the letters throught the mail slot and left a message w/ the answering service...i dont think she ever came intoday...seriously irked about that....but i had a headache seriously the size of texas and aj wouldn't listen to anything i wanted her to do, at one point today she actually broke the windshield in the car...she was sitting on the passenger seat bouncing and being a goob bounced up kinda high and bumped her head on the windshield...did not even phase her, not one bit, but my windshield now has a star crack the diameter of a basketball...oh, and it gets better...so we come home and i make dinner, which aj of course will not eat, and she dumps it on the floor, no big i'll clean it up after i have them in bed (it was an accident btw) alas, riley in her pjs goes into the kitchen and flips the bowl over and digs in...oh it was such a mess...i had to cancel work tonight because of the headache and i'm simply drained...i don't feel like i would be able to help anyone tonight...not even a little

I NEED A BREAK!!!

hello...do i look stupid?

i just got an email from someone that offered me $350 for my sofa & chair a few wks back...to which i told them the price was $475, they then of course did not want it...well in this email i got to day from them they offered me $200 ARE YA KIDDING ME!!! i simply emailed them back and said "thanks for your interest. the prices is $475 for the pair, $300 for the sofa, $200 for the chair." i can't remember if i even put anything else...sometimes i really do not want to be polite when ppl do crap like this...seriously!!!

well that just stinks!

apparently rich's sim training is not going to take place in slc, it's going to take place in atlanta...which would be do-able, except they fly him out there before we even get there!!! so there's another 3 wks that we won't be able to see him at all...but at least we'll have family around and the kids will be entertained and such...he has a guy willing to switch w/ him if possible, but it doesn't really sound promising...man that just totally stinks!!!

BOOYA!!!

elliott (said w/ an et impression LOL) brought the check by this morning! i gave him the keys, title, we did the bill of sale we drew up and the stuff on the back of the title, and then he left the car here until he can come back w/ nc plates on monday...so after i put that money in the bank we'll have a little cash on hand...not a ton but some...we'll have to wait and save for a car though i think because after tith, balancing the check book, and such there is just over $3k leftover of it...granted we do have a little money in the bank, and rich will get paid (soon hopefully) from the new job starting who knows when (i'm guessing same pay schedule) and the sublet lady was approved...yippie skippie!!! so it's really coming together

had my 1st moving sale today, i started it late so didn't have booming success, but made like 95$ (after my home teacher pays me the 25$ for the bench and shelf thing he took for his wife)...the big stuff did not go, but i'll admit i'm not heartbroken because that means that i have those luxuries for the next week and get to sleep in a bed rather than the floor and such LOL next weeks sale will start about 7am, going to start moving stuff out at 6:30am and hopefully it will all sell...however, if the bed doesn't then i plan on taking it and leaving it at my parents house so i have a nice bed to sleep on when i go visit as the one in my room now is kinda crapy LOL, not too sure on the sofa and chair yet...hopefully they will sell so i won't have to worry about it

on a funny note i had some low offers LOL i had one mildly crazy and one totally crazy today LOL...someone offered me $100 for my bed...HELLO i'm asking $400 AND i'm throwing in 4 sets of sheets for free and you think i'll take $100 are you insane!!!! and then the mildy crazy one was someone offered $300 for the chair and sofa...if they'd offered $375 i probably would've done it...but not $300...i'm not desperate, at least not this week LOL

i'm really not a big cry baby`

althought it probably totally seems that way for those of you that read this...but it just helps me deal with it all to get it out and down "on paper" then i can come back and read it and it helps me put things in a different perspective and or to realize blessings that i may not have seen at the time i was writting it...and of course all the comments i receive are very up lifting as a gen'l rule and greatly appreciated!!!

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well, he's gone...

dropped my sweet hubby off at the airport this morn, he's currently in atlanta waiting for his connection to slc. dang this stinks...it's exciting because we're progressing, but at the same time we're not progressing because of our initial circumstances...but it will be better in the long run...just g0t to keep my eye on the prize LOL

i really hope that aj does ok w/ this seperation...she is all about her daddy and i think this is going to be hard on her

my last night until i see my hubby again

for who knows how long...and we're so freaking deep in the hole that we couldn't even go out on a date for his last night here...that just blows!

i really don't think aj's going to handle it very well since even when he's been really busy in the past working he was still home at least one day a week...now she won't see him for at least 3 if not 4 wks straight. most of the time she "accepts" that he's working, but that doesn't stop her from asking frequently where he is...of course she'll be able to talk to him on the phone but as we all know it's just not the same as him really being there

i'm getting all wound up over things not being sold yet...i still have at least 3 if not 4 wks to get it all done...and yet i'm in a tizzy about it now...especially the sublet of the apt...the rest of the stuff we could take w/ us and sell in utah if need be...but the sublet we can't do that w/ obviously

oh, and we're probably going to sell the subaru instead of the saturn...possibly even both simply for the money...if he could just get paid for that job back in july we'd not really come out ahead like we would if we sold the saturn, but we'd at least break even i think...it should be enough btwn that and what we'd get for the subaru to get back out of the hole and pay for the moving truck...and maybe a few tanks of gas...but not really anything else...especially since probably all of his last paycheck from psa will probably be eaten by the stupid school loans

i know i shouldn't complain about the school loans like i do, but seriously they are the bane of my existence right now...if it were not for them we could actually put food on the table and not worry about where we were getting the money to buy said food from...we've been so blessed, and i know that after this move we'll have less financial resposnsiblities living w/ the il's for a bit of time, but it's still hard to chew for me sometimes that i can't even feed my family because of the school loans...they're really a blessing and a curse

so...pathalogical liars

so my poor oldest sil is married to one and let me tell ya he had us ALL fooled...through and through. we thought he was the most amazing thing since sliced bread...come to find out he's not even the mold that infest said bread...he's worse. she's had 6 month sea duty (she's an rp in the navy) and he's been in hawaii w/ their son, 4 yrs old now, she was planning on serving him w/ divorce papers but not until after she got back from sea duty because she didnt' want him to do anything to their son as payback or just being an idiot (sadly potentially he would) so she gets back and has someone w/ her from the ship, offered her a good home cooked meal as she'd been out 6 months too, comes home to idiot basically storming over stupid things and their son tossed something small over the banister and he apparently beat him w/ a flip flop w/ this extra person there watching the whole thing unfold...now here's the kicker...he's actually beat her to the punch line and filed for divorce against her wanting sole custody of their son, alamony, child support, and no visitation for her...i knew he was a lazy piece of crap but seriously...he's so doing all of this just to be vindictive and essentially evil...i still kick myself for ever thinking he was this awesome guy...we even did a deposition praising his fathering w/ his daughter from his first marriage (poor kid she's so in a loose loose situation) so we called sil tonight and left her a message reminding her about those and that if he tried to use them that we reneg everything we said in it about him as that was when the wool was still pulled over our eyes...seriously it's sickening!

rolflmbo!!!

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i want these

simply because they totally look like the best of both worlds

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seriously they look so stinking cool!

at least i'm getting paid for it...

seriously it is sometimes uber frustrating when i am scheduled for demo session and i've been sitting here for 50 min already and they are a no show...i'm scheduled for a 2nd hour so they still have 70 min to connect w/ me, but seriously sometimes so frustrating, especially since there is a TON of stuff that i need to do...oh, like the huge pile of dishes i let build up yesterday, the 1000 business cards that the girls have strewn about the living room, and of course pack

then of course there is also the need to buckle down and decide what stuff is garage sale stuff and what said items will cost because i am having a garage sale a week from tomorrow...hopefully it will all sell...and for my asking price...oh the joys...it's a 9 am start time but you know there will be those garage sale leaches or hawks as they're called...oh how i can't stand ppl like that!!! why can't you just follow the times set up by the person, sure be early and just wait until it's time and then swoop in and get what you want...don't irritate the ppl by weasling in early!...i can honestly say though that i only want to deal in cash, which means i'll have to get a cash box for change...uhg i hate doing garage sales, love going hate putting them on

grabs pillow, holds tight over face

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!


ok, i feel "better" now

you have GOT to be kidding me...

who can't get a $5500 car loan..seriously...either the guy just doesn't want the car anymore and is using that as an excuse or he has HORRIBLE credit and no one wants to touch him w/ a 10 ft pole i posted the car on auto trader just now...the add will run for 12 wks and be in the local auto trader book...seriously though...i could've been approved for a $5500 car loan in high school...hello!!!

oh and the sofa chick bugged on me too...in her email she was all i want just the sofa, then she emails me back, oh i want both for my budget price ($350...$125 less than asking) so that just sucks...royally!!!

they guy that was supposed to come see the apt hasn't called yet to set up a time to come...i'm really starting to stress here!!!!

now if it would all just come together...

so the guy interested in buying the saturn was calling around to banks today to find out about a loan, i don't see why he wouldn't be approved, but one never knows...he's supposed to get back to us by tomorrow about it...if he's not going to get it then we will put the car up on auto trader and hope for good things...i really hope this guy will get baby though because i want my car, that i love dearly, to go to someone that will love her just as much...and apparently he comes from saturn ppl (like his whole family has one modle or another) so he sounds like someone that would lover her

i've had several ppl contact me about the w/d but no real takers yet...so we'll see how that pans out...had tons of emails about the sofa and chair but none ever contacted me about the set again, BUT today i did have 2 ppl interested in buying just the chair for one and sofa for the other so that would be rockin' awesome if they both followed through, then i wouldn't be stuck w/ one or the other trying to get it sold...AND i'll actually get $25 more because together they're $475, seperate the chair is $200 and sofa is $300...i could use an extra $25

i really REALLY hope almost all if not all this stuff will sell before we get down to the end of the move because i really don't want to have to deal w/ a sale...i'm just not up for it!

sometimes life is really a trip!!!

so dh did AWESOME at the interview and was hired before the day was out!!! he starts training w/ skywest on the 21st of august and now the scramble begins to get all things tied up. we decided to sell all things that we could so that we had money for the breaking contract fees, move expenses, buying a car when we get there, etc.

we're going to be living in il's basement...while this is not necessarily ideal...hey, it's cheaper rent than we'd pay anywhere else and we can't afford much of anything so we'll take it!!! hopefully it won't be long before we'll be able to move out, we don't want to over stay our welcome. it will be lots of fun for the girls though to be close to cousines that they can play with and such and have a back yard that they can run around in and play. i love the fact that it's fenced in so while i still need to watch them i don't feel like i need to hawk eye them nearly as much...if that make sense.

i've started listing stuff on craigslist to sell and we're planning a garage sale so what doesn't sell before the garage sale we'll put in it...i'm really hoping most all of it will sell and for the price i'm asking so that i can just be done w/ it all.

i'm amazingly enough not completely stressed out...i had a building anxiety, however, blessings just started falling in our lap it seemed with all things starting to just work out...so here's to hopin' that it continues to do so!!!

oh, and it's a really good thing that we were finally able to get that stupid title taken car of since the saturn is one of the things we're planning on selling LOL

the title quest is finally over!!!

so it took me almost a year, but i finally got the title to my car!!! seriously i felt like a circus poodle jumping through hoops trying to get it all taken care of. now if the whole new job things happens i have a free and clear title to get my car registered in a new state...seriously...all i can say about all i had to go through to get the title...rediculous!