i am so freaking TIRED

this kid is going to be the end of me i just know it...

i'm barely functioning...just call me zombie,

it's probably a much better description than human

i'm being a horrible mommy,

i can barely drag myself out of bed in the morning,

and even then, late morning

oh how i hope this passes soon!!!

hopefully 5 or less more wks and i'll be out of it

so it's been awhile...

but what do you see over on the right?

oil leak, check, carseats, check, tune up, check

so for those of you that remember my car got crunched a few weeks back...hallalujia they did NOT total my car

even better they sent us the check for the repair so we could decide what to do with itso instead of getting the body work done (because it doesn't really look THAT bad) we got the oil leak worked on again (didn't completely solve the problem but helped a TON)

since the carseats were in the car the insurance co was required to replace them, instead of replacing them w/ the same seats, since i was going to be upgrading the seats soon, i just got what i wanted and paid the difference, so instead of almost $400 for carseats i only had to pay $117!!! (which also came out of the body repair check) and tomorrow the car goes in for a tune up, get the broken light fixed from the accident, have safety and emissions done so we can get the tags renewed, we were able to pay for #2's cast, AND get caught up on rent!!!

so hubby was right, it WAS a blessing in disguise!!!

mia again

so i'm in this fertility study, can't remember if i've talked about it here or not

http://www.eagertrial.org/about_study.php

and OF COURSE hubby has to leave for work when i rank a 3 on the fertility monitor

so if i DO get preggie this month it will probably be a girl, which is fine, because despite the fact

that I want a boy (actually a set of twin boys) my main priority is that i have a healthy baby

so if i can get preg w/ a healthy baby this month i will be on cloud 9!

which takes acting out of the mix for me all of next year, BUT not directing...i'm leaning

twds taking a show that auditions in november and opens in jan...i want to read it before i

commit to it though to see if i feel like it's up my ally or not

oh, i'm also so freaking tempted to go and buy up a bunch of $ store preggie test

and start taking them next monday, actually i'd love to take it now, but i know it wouldn't

show up yet LOL

if i don't get preggie this month i'll actually be disappointed because this is the first

time that we've actually been activly trying w/ timing and all that good stuff...oh how a

fertility monitor provided via the study helps with that!!!

although if i don't get preg i'm calling SkyWest on the fact that they have it out

for me getting preggers

LOL!!!

PLEASE DO NOT TOTAL MY CAR

so last week we were out and about, hubby had to take #1 to the car for a time out because her behavior was rediculous

well, while they were sitting in a parked, turned off car for time out the guy parked to the drivers side of them pulled out and took out the front panel of the drivers side of the car!!!

he stopped as once he started to drag our car because it was kinda locked w/ his (tires wells) he realized what he was doing (he was in a new dodge ram i think hubby said) swapped insurance info and such...did estimate for work yesterday for his insurance co to fix the car

HOLY FREAKING COW!!!

the estimate to fix the car is $1355.50 the car at kbb.com good condition is worth just over $1500...oh how i hope they are not going to total our car, we can not afford to buy another car, the car is perfectly drivable...oh, and they'll replace our carseats, which i'm still trying to decide if i want to do or not because i was going to be getting new seats w/in the next 6 months, but nicer more expensive seats, so this would go twd that, but i don't think i can afford the balance of the new carseats...oh this is such a pitb!!!

So I've been MIA as of late

So the business finally opened on the 1st of October and we've had 1 sale so far...and hey, 1 is better than nothing right, even if it did come from my sister LOL

http://www.kingscrossgreetingcards.com/ is the link if you want to check it out

It's kinda crazy having 20,000 cards and 21,000 envelopes just laying about the house...if we sold them all, especially at individual prices instead of box set prices, we'd be able to pay off our loan much faster than not...of course we won't do that because we have to replace stock, increase designs, eventually we might get a cut

after i have to admit that a "company car" with our logo on it would be a nice thing to have

i expect big things to happen, but i also know that big things take time

busy busy busy

so it's been busy around here

got the funding for the business

www.KingsCrossGreetingCards.com/Blog

if you want to keep up with that

finally broke down and got the kids a swing set yesterday

got a sunburn on my neck and part of my leg putting it together to have the glider have a bold snap/sheer so i couldn't put it on the set, so the girls are all stoked about it, thankfully they don't realize a piece of it is missing

i got a part in the halloween play

not the part i originally wanted, but still a good/fun part

it was the logical choice for the director to go the way she did

i'm considering asking her if i could direct or co-direct a show for her next year

i think that would be fun

#1 started pre-school about 3 wks ago and she LOVES it

hubby just got his raise so while we're still not recovered from the summer slump

but hopefully it won't take too long, i'm hoping after his 2nd paycheck this month we'll be fine

granted i need to call both of his loan handler companies and find out what the payments will

be going up to at the end of october/begining of november so that i can set up the budget modifications that need to happen

lots of exciting things have been going on and lots of craziness

including consideration of another dog to give the one we're dog sitting someone to play with

yes i am insane, a new dog and pt'ing my 2 yr old...

oh, and i have i told you all that not only are we going to be going for #3, but that i actually want twins so i can have my 4 and be done...the idea of being pregnant 2 more times is not high on my list of things i want to do, i could give birth until the cows come home, but that 9 months leading up to it and i are just not friends LOL

ahhh the smell of CRAZY!!!

so we've been working on the business (check the blog out here www.KingsCrossGreetingCards.com/Blog) and we're coming down to the wire...trying to figure out our internet marketing plan, but the money will be in hand soon and we've got to get the final wrinkles removed for the contract w/ our artist, get them all signed, select the cards we want, pay for them, get them printed...of course get the website finished...

AND

maintain a fairly "normal" family life

well

normal for us LOL

"blast" from the past

the other day, i found my current and pretty much rarely used journal

i thought it would be fun to see what was going on at the begining of said journal

so read i did and i realized something...

i used to be WAY deeper of a person than i am now LOL

granted now i'm lucky if i have time to think about anything, but i'm definately nowhere as deep

as i once was

i was somewhat blind at the time too though...i was so "in love" w/ the last guy i dated in college...i look back that whole time in my life, and while i'm greatful for what i learned (because if we don't learn something from our experiences what was the point of going through it right?) man i was stupid and i wish i'd not allowed myself to dwell on it as i did...deep down i knew it then as i do now...i would NOT have been happy married to that guy, at least not as happy as i deserve to be and most definately now am...dang i'm one lucky chick...i got an awesome, devoted husband who also happens to be an amazing father...the other guy...let's just say i would've had another kid to take care of among other verious other quirks...i totally wish this guy happiness, which he won't gain until he grows up and becomes quite abit less selfish...i had to giggle when i was reading and said what my dad said about it at the time...he totally thought the guy was a total chicken and of course not worthy of his daughter LOL my mom wanted me to move on, which was hard to do...especially when i'd brought myself to the realization that he wasn't going to marry me, but i was so close to leaving what was the point of even trying to date anyone else...why not just date him until i left...he of course changed that, although we still did things together on occasion and when i'd come back to the state we'd get together and visit...we were really good friends until i got engaged and then

BAM

he dropped off the face of the planet

funny how that works sometimes...i had another friend that did the exact same thing, but in hindsight i kinda think he was in love w/ me...but how the heck was i supposed to know that...he gave me NO indicators of such, at least not that i picked up on...granted i'm kinda dense when it comes to that kind of stuff so he very well may have been LOL

i remember at various points prior to meeting, falling madly in love with, and marrying the amazing man that i'm married to now that i've had several guys in my life that i could've married, but i would've had varying degrees of happiness w/ each...would've been good marriages and loving and such, but each definately would've been different and none could compare (at least not imo) to what i've got now!

sure my hubby is a stinker on occasion, but those are so far and few inbtwn that they can be passed over as naught, because we all know that i'm so not an angle...not an easy person to live with i'd readily admit, but i'm much better than i used to be ;)

bang head here

if you have children you know exactly how i'm feeling right now...

neither of my kids went to bed when they were supposed to lastnight, needless to say not

getting the amount of sleep that they need so today

BEAST

that is what they both are and it's driving me nuts!

just thought you'd like to know

"I know a chicken..."

if you have kids you know EXACTLY that i'm refering to LOL

and to top it off, it's been going through my head almost all day along w/ shakin' down the sugar by laurie berkner' songs

if's funny how the things we play for our kids totally get stuck in our minds and WE START TO LIKE THEM

here i was working on somethings at the computer while #1 danced to the music and i totally found myself jammin' right along!

let's analyze this for a moment

it's got a catchy beat

most songs are quite jazzy

the lyrics are clean, easy, and fun

so what's not to like?!!!

ok, so i will now confess i'm off to listen to some more, yes my children are asleep and have been so for several hours, but i obviously need a fix LOL

today is the day...

wow, it really happened...

i knew it would, but still it was kinda surreal ya know...

the il's left this morn for copehnagen denmark for the next 3 years and we are the sole residence of this freaking HUGE house!

i'm seriously going to have to hire a cleaning lady to come in once a month and do deep cleaing or i'm never going to be able to stay on top of this house...not the way my girls DESTROY everything...seriously if i took a picture w/ a digital camera, looked at it and then deleted it immediately, it would still last longer than it would irl LOL

on a different note, i finished the womens business grant application today, tomorrow it goes into the mail...if i could get the requested amount it would really make some of the finances easier...and we all know how i like easier, especially when it comes to money right?

now if i could JUST get the business plan done and turned in all would be lovely and grand

can any one say

STOP THE INSANITY!!!

it's really all good, i'm just feeling the pressure to get all this business stuff completed and perfected by the 29th of the month, preferrably sooner...

i've really accomplished alot...oh crap, i need to type all that up...grrr

well, i guess there went my 10:30 in bed lights off time...

we've got another meeting tomorrow morn w/ the small business advisor and i still didn't get done everything i wanted to, but i can't kick myself because i really have done alot

well, so as to not miss my goal bed time by too much i'm off to do that

just one of THOSE days...

crabby, that would be a great word to describe my mood at the moment

i'm bordering on exhaustion and #1 decides that today is the day she REALLY doesn't want to listen...driving me batty

i'm trying to keep it together because it's not her fault i'm not getting the sleep i need

and i must be insane as well because i told sil she could bring her 2 over and i'd watch them until 5 ish...hopefully earlier than that, but i'm betting on later...which now having her cousine here means that #1 will listen that muchless...oh well, at least i know it's going to happen and thank heavens for max and ruby...that ought to occupy them for at least a little while...

Market research...PLEASE participate!!!

what types of greeting cards do you want to see when you go to a store/card section/website?

what price range to you expect to see and consider a value on cards?

would you special order personalized greeting cards if you could for a little more than just buying a pre-made one and if so how much more would you expect to pay?

does it have any impact on you when you see a meme/logo (embossed or stamped) of the card company on the envelope flap when someone gives you a card, if so why?

if you had the choice of buying from a company that was about the same or a little less or a company that 10% of your purchase price went to a charity of your choice (from an established list; ie pediatric aids, komen, habitat, etc) which would you go with?

if you went with the site that donated to charity, what charities would you like to choose from?

would you purchase cards that were printed on recycled paper if you found a line that was appealing, even if it was a few cents more expensive than 1st time consumer product?

would you find a card site that was similar to jk rowlings site annoying, cool, fun, complicated, etc? ( http://www.jkrowling.com/en/thankyou.cfm or http://www.tacobell.com)

if an "occasions" box was offered, what type of occassions would you want to see in the box (ie wedding, birthday, sympathy, etc)?

if the site offered a service where you could create your own card, one or multiples, and then personalize it and send it...possibly including a gift card, gift basket, gormet popcorn, etc...would you be interested in that and if so how much would you expect to pay for these cards?

simply stunning!!!

http://www.youtube.com/v/ervaMPt4Ha0&autoplay=1

wow...it's getting really close!!!

internet has been transfered into my name as of the 1st of june

gas is set up to be transfered into my name on july 2nd as is the electricity

the security system contact phone number has been set up to change to our number and the account noted that we'll be the ones in the house for the next 3 years...

it's crazy that it's all starting to fall into place

exciting, but still crazy...it's not like i've not known this was going to happen, it's been pretty much slated out since we moved in here last year...but still, it just always seemed so far away and more like some distant memory rather than a reality...kwim?

this month is full of all kinds of little and big things going on...it will be interesting to see exactly how fast it all goes...speaking of, i need to go make an invitation for our sunday school class...all the kids remembered to bring their scriptures for a month so we're rewarding them w/ a pizza party

yes i know it's bribery, but i'm not above that...are you?

tired, crabby, stressed, and in pain

tired--as always

crabby--sadly at times goes along w/ being perpetually tired

stressed--money is thin and my tutoring is lessening because it's getting to the summer for most kids

in pain--not sure what i did but man my lower back (nerve damage area) is really hurting today!!!

beyond these lovely things, all is going quite well if you ask...

dh and i are going to start a greeting cards business,

well...at least that is the plan

sadly his schedule this last month and this coming month do not allow him to attend church

that always is a hard thing for him and me as i get to go it alone...

i have 6 days until my check up on my broken foot when they will hopefully tell me that i'm

all good and can stop wearing the walking cast

then i'll be able to wear heels out of fashion and desire rather than necessity

the girls are getting bigger all the time, we're spending more time outside so their hair is

lightening up quite a bit, still don't think they'll ever be platinum like i was when i was their age, but it's definately lighter than it was

i'm going to be "brave" and lemon my hair so that i can get mine a little lighter

it's gotten darker w/ each pregnancy and i'm really not in love w/ the color

but we all know i'm just way too lazy to do anything chemical about it...lemon i figure is

just accelerating the sun so it wont' be a big deal and i won't be hard to maintain if i decide to...

tutoring is of course getting slower, as it's the end of the year for most, but seriously

some kids get super summer crazy and do very silly things

last week i had a kid log in seriously like 20 times that did not need help at all

it drove me bonkers!!!

it is finished!

last night was the final show for the cruise of love!!!
it's one of those bitter sweet things, i'm glad it's over because it's really stretched me thin with everthing else i've had going on, but i'm totally going to miss it because i got adult interaction/conversation and got to do something i love...
oh, i was paid a very nice complement imo after saturday night's performance...a middle aged gentleman on his way out said i should come to the hale and try out there and that i could've been his daughter in beauty & the beast...i'm assuming for his age and appearance he's playing maurice...how freaking awesome would it have been to play belle since b&b is in my top 5 shows and that is the character i'd want to play...oh soaking in the compliment LOL
i'm not sure if i'd want to do hale unless i got one of their paid parts because it's such a time commitment that it would take even more of my time than this play did and this one was hard enough, juggling the kids, work, and time with rich when he was home...probably just going to stick to vcp unless hale has auditions open up for another of my top 5's which probably won't happen because i don't see them doing my fair lady, into the woods, the wizard of oz, or phantom of the opera anytime soon LOL...i don't want much do i ;)
i think as our kids get older i'll try and do more stuff like this depending what they've got going on so that i can have my hobby too...oh, and lastnight, joseph (bruce in the play) told me that i should become one of vcp's directors...the thought is actually kind of appealing, but i'm not sure if i'm ready to bite that off just yet...if i've seen it i can work with it and finess it, but i don't know if i could visualize all of it on my own to tweak what was in the script...it's something to kick around though!

only 3 more to go

fri, sat, and mon and then this run of the show i'm in is done and i will be going on hiatus until august when the auditions for the halloween shows comes up...so much craziness going on in the next few months that that is not one of the things i want to add on top of it...and there really aren't any shows i'm super interested in until the halloween show to be in, see yes, be in no...

my foot is doing better than i expected it to, have to wear my walking cast for 4 wks, then depending how my check up goes i either have to wear it 2 more or i can stop wearing it...i'm hoping for the 2nd obviously LOL

movers are coming on monday to pack up and take away the 1st shippment of stuff that is going to denmark for my il's...basically the stuff they won't NEED btwn now and when they get there...and then next month on the 20th i think they'll come and pack up all the stuff that is going to be stored and put it in the two rooms designated for storage so the house will be fairly empty and then what little we have will be moving up stairs...it will be interesting to see what it all looks like...the furniture is staying of course, but all the "fluff" is going to be gone...fil asked me what things i wanted them to pack up and store...i told him if they'd feel bad if it got broken or damaged it needed to be put away LOL...not that i plan on letting my children run wild, but things do happen...

OH, dh asked #1 and #2 this morning if they wanted a baby bro or baby sister, they both said yes...hello, i just told him 2 nights ago i don't want to get preg until oct so i can do the halloween shows!!! LOL i think it was really one if his was to start getting comfy w/ the idea of another, he's been really anti for awhile...he wants more, but wasn't sure when he wanted more...#2 hasn't been as easy as #1 was...so it will be interesting how things play out...i still of course have the iud (which i'm in LOVE w/ btw) and would have to get that removed before things went anywhere in that dept...but i will admit that it's nice to know that he's thinking about it as a probable rather than a maybe...kwim?