this is a little late...but i did survive

the week w/ 6 kids wasn't nearly as bad as i expected it to be...however, i did have a headache the size of ohhh, shall i say...texas almost the entire time i was there, no matter what i took for it...that is now gone thankfully!

so 6 kids isn't bad so long as one is not thrust into it in such a way as to go from a 2 yr old and a 9 month old to the gamit of them all LOL

and so now my cute little family embarks on a new adventour...dh got a business license yesterday for his specialty painting business (ya know, faux, murals, etc) so here's hoping that it goes well and we can build it then using it's profits to subsidize other investments creating passive income situations for us...he says his 1st goal is to make a million...as he is my cute dh i will support him in this goal so long as it does not effect our family life in a bad way

we got a money managing program (mvelopes.com) so far we're liking it...we tried microsoft money for awhile, alas we just couldn't figure it out, mvelopes is way easier so that is the route we're going currently...it should help us better w/ our budgeting and keeping in our desired ranges...granted right now it's on some phoney numbers because i'm not sure what dh will be bringing home when his raise hits next month...oh glorious raise...how desired you are!

the flowers that we planted in a small planter box on our balcony rail looks to bloom soon...well 2 of them anyways...not sure about the others, but it will be nice to see more than a mini jungle of leaves out there

the garden was looking decent last time we went down to work on it, we put a continuous (sp?) feed fertlilizer on it, next day it stormed so we may have to go back and do it again if it got washed away...we really REALLY hope that our potatoes and corn make it...it would be super cool if the lettuce, carrots, peas, and beans made it as well...we need to get the pumpkin plants in the ground soon too...or are they supposed to be planted later...oh the live of a novice gardener...each year we'll get better at it i'm sure...

this is my last "full" week tutoring as next week i only work monday because we're to go to san diego for fil's retirment from the navy gig so i won't be working while there and then the week after is "summer" and the hours are majorly reduced...it will be nice to have a bit of a lull i think...not on the money stand point, but on the stress and relaxation stand point totally!

OH and if i did my calcs right i'm only 8 rated sessions away from a promotion from tutor 1 to tutor 2 which means a small pay raise, higher hours cap, and getting to schedule sooner!

tomorrow it begins...

so tomorrow i embark on what is possibly insanity LOL...the girls and i leave for my bro's place to be the substitute babysitter for the week...i'm hoping to still have hair when i return a week from today...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

cereal strewn about the livingroom...'nough said! :-S

remind me not to take that one again!

so during the adventures of trying to get back to sc from mo (flying standby is nice for the free part but sucky for the standby part LOL) i had a bit of a spill on an escalator, looking at it i knew it was going too fast, but did my logic kick in and make me go down in the elevator...no of course not, and now my arm and my leg have the lovely bruises to show for it...thankfully i kept aj from tumbling down the stairs and didn't drop riley and was able to right myself about 1/2 way down...also thankfully no one obviously saw us as no one seemed concerned of our predicament...at least i hope it was not seeing rather than a reflection on our society as a whole...

can someone PLEASE explain to me...

why husbands at times (be they good, bad, inconsiderate, most condiserate guy ever, etc) if they're tired feel justified in being a complete poop! hello, if there were some justification in being tired i dont' think i know a mom alive that wouldn't be a complete poop all the freaking time!!!

mary mary quite contrary how does your garden grow...

this past wednesday we went out to the church farm (they have 100 acres of land down by the river) and started to plant a garden...now mind you that we have never had a garden before and have little idea of what to do...oh sure, growing up our parents had gardens, but they TOLD us what to do and we did it...so we know we need to pull weeds and water when it's dry and of course we know how to plant stuff...but timing, we have no concept of timing...like apparently we're late on the potatoes, but they "should" still grow, and we may have missed the boat on our peas and beans...we also planted carrots and lettuce so far and they too may be too late to be getting in the ground...oh, and other than the potatoes, and the corn and pumpkins we have yet to plant, all the seeds are like 3 yrs old :-S so we're hoping that seeds don't expire and that we'll still get a decent crop of each thing...it would be wild if ALL of it came up because then we'd have WAY too much of some things....like we planted 2 types of peas...the kind you shell and then the kind you leave in the pod, and then we have 3 rows of potatoes, which i don't think will be too much as we really like potatoes, and if we do have too much we can donate some to someone else that may need potates...same w/ the peas...i probably planted way too many seeds in each of the carrot and lettuce locations, but they were super tiny in my defense and i had no idea how many i should do so and taking into account that they were 3 yrs old i did quite a few in each spot/hole in hopes that at least 1 or 2 would come up from each batch...now watch, they'll all come up and i'll have to thin out like hundreds of little plants...which i must admit i wonder if when you thin them out, can you plan those somewhere else if you've not damaged the root system too much? anyways, we need to go back out today (hopefully we'll have time) and get the corn and other things in the ground that we want to plant...oh and it rained last night, which is a good thing because now i don't have to haul buckets of water up from the river to water the plants, BUT it might be too muddy to even go out and finish planting and we won't be here at all next week so by time we can get stuff in the ground it may be WAY too late for any decent crop...i'm really hoping it's not too muddy, if at all...it would be nice if the top was at least somewhat dried up...we'll find out later i guess...

a wo is me moment...

so due to extenuating circumstances i think that my milk supply is diminishing...this is totally not cool at riley is only 7 months old...so now i start to push the fluids, push the food, and pump when i don't "need" to to help the positive feedback mechanism to get my milk to build back up...i really hope i can get the supply back up...i'm not ready to stop nursing yet...#1 nursing is so dang easy...no bottle to prepare, muchless clean up later and #2 it's FREE and #3 it really is better for her than formula...if i can't i'm really going to be bummed!

our family field trip this fine friday...

for fun we went down the road to a new housing community, they have townhomes and single family homes there. we looked at their 3 bdrm ranch, their two 3 bdrm townhomes, and then their modle called the rosewood. now let me just say, if i could have that house moved from a housing community out of town on to an acre of land...and of course i had the $350k to buy said house, i would be all over it...

this house is 2+ story, has 4 bdrms, a bonus room (which totally could be another bedroom) and an attic walk up (which yet again could be another bdrm, raising the homes potential bedrooms to 6!) and then if we wanted a basement it would tack another $30-40 k on top of the price apparently, but that would yeild more space for storage, a play/rec room for kids, etc....oh to dream...needless to say our measly paycheck, while it meets our current needs and we are beyond greatful for it, would not be substantial enough for a $400k mtg LOL...

although i'm totally hanging onto the plans, because who knows...maybe we'll be able to get an acre of land somewhere down the road and then use the plans to build the home for cheaper...that would rock!

so i'm going home to good ol' missouri next week...

well, granted my kids, hubby and i can make it onto a flight...funny thing standby...sometimes it's a breeze, we're actually ticketed, get to load 1st (so we don't take off anybody's head getting the car seats into the plane) other times, we're totally sweating it, don't get to sit together when we do get on and may even have to lap child both kids since they're still 2 and under...which i guess is a perk so if there are only 2 or 3 seats instead of 4 we can still make the flight...but still, let me just tell ya...a car seat is a blessed thing on an airplane...especially w/ my kids...riley happily will go to sleep and aj, most of the time, will just chill and can't get out...unlike just letting her sit in a chair because she knows how to undo the safety belt...sometimes i like having a smart kid, other times...not so much...

so we go on to missouri next week and i get to wrangle my kids while my mom works, then they go to bed (if i could get them back on a schedule, this time change has really thrown them off) then my mom will get off work and my dad home from work and then i will start to work...so my life will be pretty much the same as it is here, just in a different location LOL...i know my parents want to play w/ the kids and stuff...but if they will actually go to bed when they're supposed to they should be asleep before they even get home/off work...it's this funky cycle...but i know that they'll just be excited that we're there and aj will have a blast because she loves to "go" pretty much anywhere LOL...i guess while i'm home i could also hit up the school librarian to see if she'd like to buy some books to add to the library...that would be cool..

do you ever have those moments

when you realize how good you've got it...how the things that have been annoying you or the dirty carpet that was clean 5 min ago or any other little thing so mean nothing and are so not a big deal when you hear that a friend is going through something medically or emotionally nasty? seriously...makes me feel like a completely ungreatful person...that truly is the one thing i never want to be guilty of but alas i think i saddly am...

oh and i forgot to say this too...

so my hubby's family is pretty spread out and pretty much all are on the net but don't keep up w/ one another so well...so i go out of my way to create a private family msn board...does anyone but my hubby join...heck no because apparently no one freaking cares...i'm keeping it alive w/ lame entries every once in awhile, but i doubt anyone will ever join...and eventually it will just go by the way side...oh, and in his fam for CHRISTmas there are so many of them they exchange names so it doesn't cost as much, for some reason the person that did the draw sent an email w/ a complete list of who had who...well, needless to say know who didn't care enough to even send me a card this past CHIRSTmas...i know it's petty and whinny, but seriously it totally makes me feel very unloved...but whatever right?!

happy to report

that almost all are healthy in my home FINALLY!!! oh, and for the record, i did go to the doc about the cement flegm thing along w/ the other illnesses i'd encountered...and lo and behold they didn't say on gosh darn thing about it...big surprise...sometimes i really feel like doctors are such a joke, they breeze in, look at your chart for 30 seconds, then at you for another 30 seconds (if you're lucky), they might ask you a few question, pronounce the dx and then they're gone...i had this happen, on my chart it plainly stated that i was nursing and the dingbat gave me an rx that should not be taken if nursing...HELLO!!!

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being sick SUCKS!

1st week of feb...flue
2nd week of feb...uti
3rd week of feb...strep

please say the 4th week i will be fine...PLEASE!!!!

Rubber Cement Flegm

i'm really getting sick and tired of this stupid cough coming back every 2 to 4 wks and setteling in the very top of my lungs...it's really no fun to be in the middle of anything and have your airflow suddenly cut off by a clump of flegm that seriously is the consitency of rubber cement!!! probably tmi, but i just want to be understood how irritating this is!!! i generally don't really feel bad w/ it...maybe a little extra tired but usually just the cough, irritating cotton in the lungs feeling, and sudden loss of airflow due to said flegm...mom of course wants me to go to the doc...maybe i will one of these days...

ok, so i must admit

that the lack of comments is slightly depressing...but maybe that's a good thing...maybe that means my blog is "hidden" and therefore i can say what i want to say and just get it all out...like a journal, but sadly not on paper...so maybe i should just do it on paper, but it's faster for me to type...strange i know, but my handwritin is soo freaking poor that sometimes i don't even know what i wrote! LOL any whoo...i need to get off the comp now and do something else...not sure what...but something else...i've got to work for 4 hrs today later so that will be pleanty of time to be online.

well...upon reevaluation....

I have decided that the poetry is way too depressing and I will be way more selective of what I put on here from now on if any at all!!! Dang I'm glad that like 98% of that stuff was based on other ppls problems!!! Although I will admit that the tears one is me...and I still have a hard time sucumbing to such a display! I'm much better at being the rock ppl lean on for support than being the one that needs support...

The Swan

The swan moves smoothly across the placid water
Then an arrow, cutting through the air, pierces through her heart
She fights what is happening
But in the end she sinks to the bottom of the now agitated water
...and once again it becomes calm
As though the swan was never there
Who will miss the swan?

The Dream

Last night I dreamt a dream

Upon which I woke with a smile

That smile became imprinted

On my heart and caused

A smile o spread across

My face and a rush of

Giddiness through my

body countless times

That day...all I know

Is that if it were to be true

The smile would not be a flash

But an ever present element

And that giddiness would

More than likely be unquenchable

WOW...I sound like one messed up teen chick!!!

HOLY! I just finished inputting the first 3 pages of my "poetry book" and wow...do I sound like one love tortured girl...the funny thing is...I wrote almost ALL of my poetry based on other ppls experiences that I'd over hear...how weird is that!!!