well, we know what we're having now

and the verdict is
ANOTHER GIRL!!!
yes we would've loved a boy, but hey, we won't send her back either...because what is most important when it comes to babies is that they're healthy and that's the verdict she keeps getting...which even if she weren't we'd still love and keep her just the same

it's also kinda nice that other than a few baby basics we don't need to buy anything new...we are totally stocked on clothes, may buy a few new things here or there just to round out the wardrobe and give her at least one or two things new, but over all we're pretty set in that dept...so car seat, double stroller (found a GREAT deal on this, i'm so excited about it), 4 "L" brackets to fix the crib drop side, and stock pile money for diapers or buy the supply of cloth diapers that i want...these are all things we would've had to get either way so this baby is the "cheaper" baby to have LOL

i have an anterior placenta so that's been kinda rough, not feeling her do her baby boogy all the time...but man when she means business, she means business and i definitely feel her...sometimes it almost hurts she nails me so hard...and it's kinda interesting, i'm finding i can't do things, like lift my kids, like i was able to w/ a "regular" placenta placement...my abdomen feels more strained...i actually felt a funky pull the other day, didn't hurt but i could tell it wasn't something that should happen, so i don't pick my kids up unless i have to now...which stinks...especially when they want to be carried up stairs to bed

we've got the baby's name picked out (we had one of each before we knew what we were having) and so long as she looks like it that will be her name...granted if she doesn't i'm not sure what we'll name her but we'll figure that out IF that time comes LOL

stubborn baby

went yesterday for our u/s
we got 10 fingers, 10 toes, 2 arms/legs/eyes, and a nose
but no idea if i'm packin' xx or xy
now we need to decide if we're just going to wait and be surprised or if we want to shell out more money to find out...i don't see hubby being able to really wait LOL
so we shall see what happens

gray day

over cast is an understatement today, dang it's blah
BUT at least #2 put panties on of her own accord after her nap today...now if she'll just do what needs to be done to keep said panties clean and dry i would be one happy momma
i hope it's not an unrealistic desire...but i REALLY want #2 pt'd long before #3 gets here so that it won't be as big of a deal for her...i really would like a break from diapers...i haven't had one in over 4 yrs LOL

i did make a shopping score yesterday (for those of you that know me well...shopping and i don't really go hand in hand like most females and shopping...it's just not my thing)...i was able to get the girsl 4 kidbe shirts to share for $5 each...a total steal imo, i have the hardest time finding shirts that are long enough and these will fit them for a very long time, and it doesn't hurt that they're made well either!

my belly gets bigger everyday it seems, which is of course always a good sign...i've still not really felt the baby move, at least not that i've id'd as the baby...but they are a fast mover, last week at my mw appt when she did the doppler to check the heart rate for the baby, they kept moving like a little bullet out of the way so she kept having to hunt for it...we all got a laugh out of that LOL

i have an u/s appt this friday at 10 am to check the baby out and hopefully see if we're packin' a double x or if we've got a y going on in there this time around...i'm really hopin' for that y, but healthy is always what is most important!

i took myself off of my prevacid, the side effects of being on it were causing a situation where i wasn't really absorbing any of the nutrients from the food i was eating...i started slow, back down from twice a day to once a day for about 1/2 a wk...that went well so i decided to see if i could handle being off of it completely...no need to stay on meds if you don't really need to kwim?...well, all has been well since then (which i'm more than sure my lowered stress level has a huge amount to do with)...i am starting to have more energy as food is staying in my system longer now so that i can actually absorb the nutrients

i've not gained very much weight at all, BUT more important...i didn't loose this time like i did w/ #1 (20 lbs before i started to gain) and #2 (15 lbs before i started to gain) so while i was def sick this time around it wasn't as extreme, just the fatigue this time was the killer...i'm still dealing w/ fatigue, but it's sooooooo much better than it was before!!!

i must admit that i whole heartedly doubt my ability to parent 3 kids, the 2 i have are such a challenge at times that i don't think i can deal w/ them, let alone add another into the mix
although, i saw something the other day that basically said it all...ppl ask me often how i do the "single parent" thing as much as i have to since hubby is gone for work so much and the following statement i think answers it nicely..."i don't think about it, i just do it"...it's not until i think about it from another's pov that i really think "oh, yeah, this really isn't an easy gig"...which i know it's not easy, but when you're in the middle of it, you just don't have time to think about that at all

totally ot, but the other day i was thinking about going home to visit my parents and i had the brief thought that while i was there i'd drop in and see one of my fav teachers turned friend...then i remember, she's been dead for several months now...it made me sad for her hubby because i know he must be so lonely...but she was ready to go, she was at peace with the fact that her life was ending...she'd battled breast cancer enough times that she was ready to let it win the last fight and leave her pain ravaged body behind...very few of you were blessed to know this woman, but she was an amazing person, teacher, friend...all around just amazing and i have been so blessed to have her in my life and have her influence in important places as it was...i only hope that my kids can have someone like this in their lives too...it's of course important to have ppl like this in our family, but ever so important to have them outside our family as well

well, the street of sesame is over...that means my time here is now cut off

universal health care

just a quick rant
i do NOT see our gov't being able to manage something as financially HUGE as uhc...seriously...they've mismanaged social security, they spend way too much money on their salaries and on toilet seats (etc)...we are NOT a socialistic gov't and i'd like to keep it that way


we'd be far better served as a nation if instead they'd put into play legislation that regulated cost of health care, cost of health insurance, and the frivolities added on to medical malpractice law suits (and of course how much money the lawyer can make off of it) ...now don't get me wrong, we do need medical malpractice law suits, but imo they should be for life time medical care of the condition caused and lost wages if any...but loss of life experience, pain and suffering gmab!!! those are stupid and ridiculous...life is pain and suffering and depending what we do w/ it we loose out on certain experiences by our choices and those of the ppl around us...it's stupid!

ok, off my soap box